Sometimes loving somebody isn’t enough. You should really stop trying to force relationships that clearly aren’t working to work. I think a lot of times people put themselves in these fucked up situations that make Future chuckle with how toxic they are by trying to save face.
When I was younger I was very lust based. Like I literally would bar hop with the hopes of “smashing on some randomness😎” for the sport of it. Legitimately out here sport fucking and ending up in these(post nut guilt) relationships with these strangers. I hated every single relationship lol like it got to the point I would be fake asleep during sex.
My partners could feel that I wasn’t that attracted to them. So instead of me being a man and breaking things off, I would see how far they would go to keep me around. They knew I had one foot in and one foot out but would try to have me stay with money and gifts. Never worked not even once to keep me of anything it let me know how LITTLE they valued themselves.
I think with adults dating you have to understand the fundamental fact that we are animals. That the reason you like that person is primal to a point that we may never understand as humans. Even with understanding that , you should seek someone who understands you.
I don’t believe in the one (shouts out to Escanor) I believe that you’re able to find multiple people who fit your criteria and you meet there’s. I describe it as the electric chemistry. Like when you go somewhere and you lock eyes but when you lock eyes it’s like you BOTH know you’re compatible. Like there’s the “ I GUESS I’ll talk to her 🥱“ vs the “ Bro if I don’t introduce myself to this woman I know I’ll have made a horrible horrible mistake I can’t recover from”🥴
Instead of wanting to fall into your animalistic nature, you’ll chill out. I’m not saying those connections are plentiful. I’m saying when you feel it capitalize and build that bond. There are plenty of fish in the sea but Marlin still only wanted Nemo. I guess I want to be with someone I care about losing for once.
I’ve got a long way to go. I’m at the point where I’d rather keep developing myself before I bring in a person out of boredom. I don’t know what I’m looking for but i know what it feels like. Next time I want to keep it but we’ll see fam.
